Rarely I encounter a movie I really want to see. How do you think, take the story written by Haruki Murakami. Add music by Ryuichi Sakamoto, and cast Issey Ogata and Rie Miyazawa in it. The result looks so beautiful. This movie was released 2005 and I regret for not finding the DVD in my hands yet. I will, next month.
I've been fan of Issey Ogata since I saw the Taiwanese movie "two plus one" in which he was cast. I'm not sure how tightly this follows the Murakami's original story, which was included in his short story collection "Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman".
01 December 07 - 23:09Leaving it (almost) all behind! Done. Check!
Today I deleted the archives from my mac's mail.
I have been obsessing over these. I had pretty solid archive of all messages I've exchanged since 1999. I thought it's important for me to build a history of exchange of numerous people I've met in this world. Nonetheless, today I just started feeling that maybe, you know, I should let it all go. It's too much memories. Only things I left were messages from my girlfriend and couple of business related messages I must keep.
But my digital memories weren't only things what I'm getting rid of.
My girlfriend said me once, "Trusting someone is like gamble". We can never be sure of someone. To trust someone on logical basis, we should study years of one's social behaviour, ethics, mentality. And we still couldn't be sure. Even if we make positive record of years of observation, it might be that at last moment, all we've learned takes a hike and the person does something we didn't expect.
That's how we human beings are. That's so frightening sometimes, the ability of us to change so drastic. Thus I have drawn a conclusion, on logical basis, we cannot begin to trust someone.
So only thing we can trust is ourselves, maybe.
Or, if we love someone, then often trust comes bundled with the feeling of love, maybe. That's what I feel about my girlfriend. I've always felt the most deepest sense of trust for her and I've never really thought about it. I can believe this trust and love. And I'm sure tomorrow they exist too.
Another people of course are my parents. I mean my real father and mother, not the biological ones.
They have been the solid rocks that have stood still while everything else in my world has turned over. Winking, sometimes my father has questioned my attempts, but he has never had a bad intention. I have felt very comfortable to stay with my parents this months, before leaving to Japan for good.
Still I think that maybe I've learned something from the numerous times when I've been scammed. Maybe I've got chance to feel person's character more deeply. I hope that will help me to avoid these situations in future.
The sad truth nonetheless seems to be that probably I will be scammed in future again. It has happened so many times, that probably my mother's recent rather drastic attempt wasn't last one. Maybe, next time I will care less if someone wants to cheat me, and learn how to "let it all sink into the deep soil of our hearts". If someone tries to harm us, we shouldn't pay too much attention to it, but to concentrate ourselves to do the right choice.
"The little devils exist everywhere" said my girlfriend.
It cannot be helped, sadly.